Kicking Cancer

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Cancer Behind Me

Almost a year after diagnosis

Almost a year after diagnosis

Hello friends,

It has been such a pleasure sharing this journey with you.  In fact, in many ways it was a huge part of my healing process.  Writing about my emotions or a technical aspect of my experience really helped me to get a handle on it myself.  I never wrote a post that did not feel completely “ripe”, and so only wrote what I really felt like needed to be out there in the world.  When I look back now at all the posts since last March when I first received my diagnosis I am reminded of a difficult, but also manageable and magical year.  Mostly what I remember is tons of support, love, laughter.  I met some remarkable people that I would not have otherwise met, and I faced fears and other issues that made me stronger and wiser.  I am in such an awesome place.  I think what I got most out of this past year is a result of in depth research of the best diet for me and a real understanding and belief that diet and self-care regimen will be unique for each person.  So much has to do with each body type and what feels good to each person.  But the biggie is best said by Suzanne Friedman, qi gong professor at the Acupuncture and Integrative Medicine College in Berkeley.  (I had the pleasure of taking a qi gong course with her on weekends between radiation appointments). We take awesome care of our cars…we take them in for tune ups and dump tons of money into them.  We can’t live with out them and fill them with gas and oil when it is needed.  But when it comes to our own bodies, we skip meals, don’t go to the doctor, don’t get massage/acupuncture “tune ups”.

Yesterday was a gorgeous “no parking along the coast” beach day and the kids, dog and I headed north to Moonstone Beach and Trinidad beaches.  We climbed over rocks, working together to find the best routes and help the dog scramble up and down (I know…poor dog!), we played with sticks and in the sand, built a gnome house, and found tide pool creatures.  It was heaven on earth.  I am completely heathy and happy, with cancer behind me, despite my continued treatment every three weeks with Herceptin, and nightly Tamoxifen.  It was a bump in the road that we made it over, and now we will keep on cruising.

I have gone back and forth about what to do with this blog…keep it, transform it, get rid of it… it has just been sitting until now.  On a whim (that is how I operate) I am shuttin’ her down!  I have a TON in the hopper right now and am excited about the present and the future.  No time for the past (except for the wisdom gained and new friends made!)

So although I will not be blogging on the site anymore, I will leave the website up because I can see that it is still of value (an average of  20 people per day from all over the world (!) are finding it).   I will be adding a page with related cancer books and wellness books that I have found inspiring or useful.  So, the website will sit and if anything comes up I will certainly write a post and get it all going again, but in the meantime, just know I am healthy and well.  If I am suddenly not, you will hear about it!!  And thanks all for your concern.  My favorite thing ever is when people ask me how I am doing and tell me they have followed my blog.  So thank you for that.

In fact, THANK YOU SO MUCH for all of your support and cheerleading.  I am determined to get something meaningful (a little something I am working on) out to everyone who played a part…from people who posted a message on here, sent me emails, made me tea, made my family (and sometimes me) amazing meals, donated money to my family or my causes (Marin Cancer Institute or Breast Health Project), brought me tokens for travel/my altar…..all of you THANK YOU.  I have learned so much about community from you all and was super touched by every single message I received on this blog and separate emails so thanks from the bottom of my heart.  I am gushing I realize…I suppose it is one of those moments to just say “Words cannot express the gratitude I feel”.

On a fundraising note….the Humboldt Area Foundation fund (which was started with money from the Simply Mac Raffle, the Mad River Brewing Company Tasting Room’s Pints for Non Profit event, Macs in the Midst, Chicken Boots, and a few friends) has been moved over to Humboldt County Breast Health Project (for more info on why, please contact me directly…it just made the most sense…all entities involved agree!).  It is now called The Integrative Wellness Fund.  I will be honored if you donate to the fund (or the Breast Health Project in general) as people with cancer will be able to have pretty direct access to it within a month!!   I am very excited about this.  The money will enable a cost share for people with cancer going through treatment to have funds for complimentary/wellness care such as qi gong, acupuncture, and therapy.

Much love, and don’t forget to take care of YOU today.  Fill yourself up, and tune up!


En route to treatment

En route to treatment



Self-care regimen (Goodies from Amy of Radiant Balance)

Self-care regimen (Goodies from Amy of Radiant Balance)

Me and my favorite boy

Me and my favorite boy

Taste test with the kids (don't make the one on the right!)

Taste test with the kids (don’t make the one on the right!)

Asher spicing up our "root bake"

Asher spicing up our “root bake”

At Humboldt Juice Works with the fave is The Killer Green

At Humboldt Juice Works with the kids….my fave is The Killer Green

My Integrative Care/Wellness  Healing Team (Amy, me, Jessica, Zena)

My Integrative Care/Wellness Healing Team (Amy (nutrition/aryuvedic, me, Jessica(acupuncture/chinese medicine), Zena( qi gong/chinese medicine))

Thank you once again!  Be well!


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16 thoughts on “Cancer Behind Me

  1. Jen McFadden on said:

    Nicole, congratulations for being able to say goodbye to the cancer and thus the cancer blog! You inspired a whole community (and beyond) and seeing your beautiful smiling face in these photos with your family and team-mates makes me so very happy. You found ways to let this very hard situation lead you to insight, wisdom, and even joy. It’s been amazing to watch. I have read every blog entry and gained a lot from them (I think of you often when I’m buying veggies : ) but I’m delighted that it’s time for you to move on to other things. You’ve got other adventures to attend to! Hurray!

  2. on said:

    Hi Ncole – Good Job – Wishing you well on your continued journey of WELLness. Sending you love and light. Susanne San Rafael …. former next door neighbour to Mindy & Ray et al! ;-)   

    • wow, nicole! what a joyful post!!!
      it has been a pleasure to witness the grace with which you have KICKED everything that doesn’t serve you.
      sending love and cheers all the way from idaho,

  3. Jessica Baker on said:

    You are always so inspiring to me, Nicole! I am blessed to know you as intimately as I do.

  4. Chloe on said:

    So glad you’re where you are now , have appreciated your shadings along the way XXOO to you & your family, Chloe

  5. Jen Kalt on said:

    goodbye, cancer blog! :)

  6. Kinara on said:

    It makes me so happy to read your farewell and hear how you are going forward with your life with such a great attitude. I , too have Kicked cancer and have followed your blog as a friend and someone who knows how important optimism, family and community support are to healing (and healthy food!). Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! I am so glad that you are doing so well, may it continue to be so! Love to you and your family.

  7. Jennell Kvistad on said:

    Onward, Friend! May you dance with NED (No Evidence of Disease) for a long long long time. I look forward to see what you do next.

  8. Brenda Bishop on said:

    Thank YOU Nicole, xx/oo

  9. Jackie Musselman-Prendergast on said:

    Nicole, thank you for allowing complete strangers to follow your journey. I prayed for your recovery, and found faith in your road to recovery. My husband just had surgery on the 8th for cancer in his left lower lung. They had told us that we should expect to have an entire left pneumoectomy performed, but were so blessed that they only had to take the lower lobe. This is an experience I have never experienced, as a spouse, and just following your brave journey has helped me get through our own journey. I thank you for your ability to share your experiences, and give others a glimpse at what to expect in their furture. You are one of my heros, and I so wish the best for you and your family.

  10. Bonnie Etz on said:

    Embrace the Present and sail into the future, dear Nicole. Thank you for sharing your unique journey with us all. I hope to see your smiling face around town. Love your cute hair!
    Bonnie from the Project

  11. Kris Halstrom and Zak Shea on said:

    Congratulations, Nicole! We are all so, so happy for you and your family. Thank you for all your sharing.
    -Kris and Zak

  12. Angela Owen on said:

    Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! I literally wrote your name on my hand two days ago because you were on my mind so much. I know you are a spontaneous woman, so text me next time you all are in the hood. We’d love to beach it with you all. xoxo

  13. Alisa Hove on said:

    It is so wonderful to see you glowing with health and vitality, Nicole! We are so happy for you and for your family… Thank you for sharing your experience and wisdom. love, love, love you!

  14. You continue to inspire us, Sweet Daughter-in-law! Here’s to new chapters in life focused on things beyond cancer. You have opened health-worlds to many people, it has been game-changing, I suspect, in major ways. Happy juicing, and here’s to new adventures. We love you! Mary and Sherif

  15. Hot tears of joy are streaming down for you and your sweet family! Can’t wait to see you around town and give you a big squeeze. Lots of love, Mia

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